i have an attitude disorder

2006-01-14T08:59:00.000-08:00

this blog is no longer in use.

drop me a nice msg on msn and i might tell you the new site. close friends only pls. =)

2006-01-11T00:55:00.000-08:00

its been projects projects projects and more projects since like dec'05 till now. and raining everyday isnt helping. it makes u lazy, sleepy and frustrated easily. argh. i just have to go out or i will just go mad when it starts again like tomorrow..and so! i'm going to watch a movie later with the guys! =) yes, hopefull we really do.

town is so filled with so many so many heads recently, so irritating.. all the pushing and stuff. i just saw like two really old uncles fighting yest at the mrt station? wth. their total age is like at least 120yrs? and they are fighting in public...they were shopping so loudly! one claimed that the other purposely pushed him as he wants to rob him..huh!?!?

new year..faster come please faster come. i need money. sometimes i just wish i was a farmer or something, their life is so simple. wake up, plant...eat sleep wake up, plant again. dont need to worry they dont have enough money to buy clothes, cannot fail exam or you will be nothing, no high paying job, lalalala the list goes on really long.

to Athalia Koh Mei En! you are such a darling! you saw me drenched, you ran up to me and was shouting my name so loudly( yet i cannot hear), not caring about your image just to shelter me from the rain to wherever i was heading to though you were going in the opposite direction. where can i find such a friend..the most impt thing is, we caught up! =) love.

2006-01-08T06:56:00.000-08:00

i never knew working was so tiring. standing up for 5hours is no joke. =( my leg is so tired. not to mention, there werent any seats in the train.

anyways, JAKE GYLLENHAL is the one. now that i know jude law cheats, he goes about nude in his balcony... ...all the scandalous things...i no longer think he is cute. Sorry, it looks so pixelated.

2006-01-05T07:37:00.000-08:00

im in the blogging mood. so here it goes.

new year is coming in 3 weeks time! next week cousin is getting married. fun filled events for january. yay! another cousin is getting married too. i love weddings. so sweet, so white, so passionate, so loving, so everything!

oh yes. pls invite me to your house for bai nian-ing. =)

set a date with the girls to bai nian already. haha. this type of thing must book early.
so lionel, when shall we push our luggage around?

i want to watch elizabethtown! ORLANDO BLOOM. OMG! memoirs of a geisha! date me please...but not to empress. thank you. i want to wakeboard! i need the sun, no more rain please. its making me lazy and gloomy. i need to get rid of that awful lifejacket line i have. kim med! are we ready for the sun!

i see ur face with my eyes wide shut. says:
look what i found based on ur birthday!

i see ur face with my eyes wide shut. says:
"Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious."

thats what cheryl found for me. haha. so true. right? right? i think so....=) hmmm....not so sure about the disciplined part though. i am just so so lazy and messy.

i have so many nice pirated dvds at home to watch now, but i got not time. when i have nothing to do, i have ntohing to watch. irritating. but at least i watched my pearl harbour again after so long. ben affleck, kate beckingsale, josh harnett. *drools* the best cast i can ever get.

anyways, i saw this pict on the net the other day. freakin gross. let me share it.. i already dont like her, this make me feel even more disgusted. what in the world made her do that. doesnt she realise that many eyes are on her and she is in public. HELLO?!?

Sighers. whats happening to my once cute once handsome once "macho" looking Ben affleck. he looks totally unkept now..

after eating maggie noodles for 3 days in a row, i so know that my kidney is going to fail me.

2005-12-30T07:36:00.000-08:00

i know lionel is going to kill me after reading this post..but who cares.

our dearest lionel tock chun wei is hospitalised cause his ass have SOMETHING. don tknow what thing lah that is causing his royal ass to hurt so badly that he cant walk, so they have to operate it off. Now, his ass cost $1400. goodness! and he is lying on the hospital bed BOTTOMLESS! haha, i caught a glimpse of his not so sexy ass.

goodness. i thought shit was the smelliest, but.....when he lifted his blanket, some unwanted smell leaked...me junxiong and shawn had to flee immediately for fresh air. haha.

2005-12-29T09:20:00.000-08:00

dance with me says:
tracy wan you know what?

. i n t o x i c a t e me . says:
what

dance with me says:
i'm depressed

. i n t o x i c a t e me . says:
why leh?

dance with me says:
i forgot how to write my chinese name

. i n t o x i c a t e me . says:
eh whatever lah..dont waste my time. i thought someone say his chinese damn good one. pui! bluff people!

dance with me says:
YAH! I CANT BELIEVE IT! I'M A CHINESE! how can i ever forget how to write my name. shit.

. i n t o x i c a t e me . says:
go check up the dict lah. dont ask me. my chinese sucks just as bad.

dance with me says:
i dont have a chinese dict here pls. I'm in australia hello?

. i n t o x i c a t e me . says:
eh toot there is something called the online dict you know.

dance with me says:
reallY? got chinese one? how come i didnt know.

. i n t o x i c a t e me . says:
stupid.

dance with me says:
fuck. even my caucasian friends can speak chinese.

. i n t o x i c a t e me . says:
stupid stupid stupid. brendon is so stupid.

dance with me says:
shut up lah! i will stuff my hamster in your mouth.

. i n t o x i c a t e me . says:
WHAT?! you are so so sick. i am telling the world of your cruel acts.

dance with me says:
tell lor tell lor! i wish i can eat him at times...he is getting fat. MUAHAHA!

conclusion: Brendon is stupid and he is psyco. stuff a hamster in my mouth? eat a hamster? come one, leave that little thing alone. now, kill me. =)

i've done 22 pages of my script! weeee....more to come tom.

2005-12-28T08:22:00.000-08:00

i'm having a mental blockage. i dont know how the hell to do my script. i am stucked stucked stucked! i have typed like 10 pages of rubbish but i havent even reach the climax of my story. how am i going to finish it by friday. oh God, please bless me.

through my stoning period. i thought of my New Year's resolution. I PROMISE TO STICK TO IT WITH ALL EFFORTS! or at least i will TRY MY VERY BEST TO...

1) attend church every sunday faithfully
2) QUIT drinking QUIT drinking ( or at least CUT DOWN)
3) seriously stop procastinating
4) talk nicely and not shout
5) be more patient & control my temper/pms
6) cut down clubbing?
7) SAVE MONEY! i got to save for rainy days!
8) Be faithful in attending classes (wake up early and quit being lazy!)
9) yoga and skip more

yeah thats about it for now. i am pms-ing. so if i ever appear irritated or anything, forgive and forget. i badly need my sleep. i am turning into a zombie soon..a stoney-fied one.

2005-12-25T22:59:00.000-08:00

Christmas Eve: woke up at like 1+ in the afternoon, ate lunch and went down to maple's place carrying three big and heavy paper bags. i nearly died, thank God daddy gave me lift. And so, they were all so excited over their birkens, esp maple tan. haha, but that toot didnt go and try her size first...as a result, her birkens is just way too big for her.

had dinner there. the usuals ham, turkey, pork and salad. There were so much meat that i didnt know what i was eating.

caught kingkong later at westmall. goodness. after 1hr and 20mins, king kong havent even appeared. my butt was getting hot and painful after all that sitting and waiting for kingkong. only the last 1 1/2 hrs was ok...SO SAD LAH! king kong fell from the 100th floor. ouch!

Christmas day: Merry Christmas everybody! went to marina for dinner with my family then headed down to Mount Faber. Wanted to watch what light show, but its like 40 bucks per person! so expensive! so we just went up to their "bar" thing for drinks instead.

A really really beautiful place. SO WINDY AND NICE! As usual, me and jie will be snapping photos and making loads of nice....at such a nice and romantic place. haha. We were like disrupting the couple behind us from romancing. had my usual magarithas. stayed there till 10+, then decided to go MOS with jie jie, jie's bf and their friends.

MOS is so so big. each dance floor is like one club size? and so, we didnt have to pay or queue to enter the club, and they got a table at PURE(one of the room with a really cool setting). They treated drinks and supper too. =) so nice of them.

Boxing day: Woke up at 1+ again. doing my damn homework now. my stupid script. argh. irritating the brains out of me. i am still at scene 1....long way more to go.

going to auntie stella's place later.( A family friend) our usuals...

2005-12-23T08:00:00.000-08:00

this the season to be jolly...falalalala lalalala.

but i dont feel very jolly or christmas-y leh.

went town to cut my hair, met xiang wei cause he wanted to give me my christmas present. SO SWEET of him, never expected that he would get one for me though. =) appreciate it lots and lots.

2005-12-22T22:49:00.000-08:00

i want to cut my hair. but i am feeling so damn lazy. the weather is so perfect. to just tuck in bed and watch some dvds. it doesnt feel like christmas.

anyway, i decided to start a new blog. cause i can no longer pen what i feel here.

theres freakin alot of difference between caring for someone and nosing into someone's life and getting hooha about it. i feel so damn irritated now..blame it on the pms or whatever. i am as busy as you are, so dont go complaining to me about how busy you are and assume i am not. yah yah, your course is so damn busy and mine is just to sit down and shake legs. the projects i do are like so "duh, i can finish it in 1 day" but yours is " one week 7 days and 7 nights cannot even finish" kinda thing.

2005-12-21T23:27:00.000-08:00

i had the sweetest dream ever last night. =)

e-learning should just break down and let all the virus attack. its damn irritating. ARGH!!!!!!

* dont blame me for whatever wrong thing you did which you know was wrong. you disappointed me so much. just a few days ago u scolded me. now, i cant even be bothered to scold you anymore. you are just no longer the person i know. if u still dont think whatever thing you did was your fault, i dont know what else to say to u. dont expect me to pick up your call until you thought it through.

2005-12-18T06:25:00.000-08:00

thank you and sorry everyone for THAT night.

i like new creation church. =)

2005-12-14T08:12:00.000-08:00

having leg spasm today, as a result, i totally embarrassed myself countless of times. i kept tripping over nothing hence twisting my ankle like countless of times today. i am just so clumsy. tsk..

if i am rich.......

i want a super package at marie france bodyline. haha.

i want to go South Africa and Venice.

i want to own a house by the beach or on a hilltop overseeing the lovely nature.

i will buy down a cineme theatre.

i want an omega speedmaster. its gorgeous.

i want my mercedes SLK. i dream about driving this car..

2005-12-13T07:24:00.000-08:00

i really dont need unsincere people as my friends. thank you, please leave.
i wont say who, but if you feel you are one...yeah. just go lah.
if guys are like everything, just go grab one and go marry now..what for waste time and use others as substitutes man.
JUST FREAKIN GET LOST LAH. i dont really give a damn and i wont.

on a happier note, yeah, just celebrated my birthday. i would specially like to thank KIM, HC, lion, rach and many others. and yes, BRENDON this is specially for you, thank you thank you so much for the precious time and money spent on wishing me happy birthday from thousands of miles away.

kim stayed over, i love it. so so nice to talk to her till i felt sleepy, wake up and see her and took a photo of her toot sleepy look. hhaha. MUAH! you're the best.

holidays is coming in 3 days! Weeeee.....but got six projects to chiong within that two weeks. so not really a holiday after all. looking forward to class chalet..we need it.

2005-12-08T06:42:00.000-08:00

i miss you like mad.

around this time last year, a man pressed my doorbell and asked me to sign this receipt upon recieving this big beautiful bouquet of flowers with some white fluffy feathery thing at the side. attached on it was this red floating heart shaped ballon which reads "will you grow old with me". i will never forget the sweet nothings in the card that was just so incredibly sweet.

when will i see you again?

no matter what, nothing in this world will ever replace all the love you have showered upon me and the things you have done for me.

2005-12-05T04:08:00.000-08:00

yet another funeral to attend.

2005-11-28T21:02:00.000-08:00

i'm always sick at the wrong time, when school is so busy, having tests blah blah blah. but when i am so free and sick of school, i just dont get sick.

raelyn is so cute and sweet. =) she saw my leg has this red dot (mozzie bite), she sweetly runs up the stairs, brings down a pouch, opens it, takes out the aloe vera cream and helps me apply it...without me asking her to do so. then i asked her to take photo with me...then she came close to my face and smile, then she asked me to let her see..after i let her see the pict...she actually said "AGAIN AGAIN". haha. so cute!!

ok there is dip shite presentation and law test in 3 hrs time. laters!

2005-11-27T06:56:00.000-08:00

i may be materialistic, but not to the extent of being mean and all bimbotic.

2005-11-22T04:48:00.000-08:00

after so many pissed off entry. i am now happy again..only at the thought that CHRISTMAS IS COMING! and of course my birthday. hahaa. dont everyone just love the joy of giving..the process of shopping for x'mas presents. i love it so. =) the jingles on the street...the light ups at orchard rd, the same old music that plays "on the first day of christmas my true love sent to me....."- beautiful. cant wait to see my Christmas Tree at home to be filled with zillions of pressie though only like 1/10 belongs to me. haha.

tomorrow is outing with my honey ass hc to celebrate her belated birthday. i cant wait. she's been such a darling to me for the past 1 1/2 yrs. the only true one..thank you!

2005-11-21T04:20:00.000-08:00

*you ruined my entire day. thanks so much for all the backstabbing..to think we were all so nice to think and consider your feelings, and now what! you come and say some shite about us.bitch.oh i am so sorry, we can do w/o you.MOST WILLINGLY AND GLADLY. its you who need us, not us who needs you.

2005-11-19T06:44:00.000-08:00

fcuk.

carrine: thank you so much! lets dance under the moonlight together my love.
just a reminder, you owe me a drink. haha.

brendon: sorry lah sorry. stop nagging.. i cant believe you bought a prada shirt
and best of all it looks so normal you are mad and i got to let the world
know about it. too much money to spend, tell me. i tell you my acct no.

2005-11-17T07:56:00.000-08:00

watched just like heaven just now with carrine. =) the movie is damn sweet. feel so in love, but dont know in love with who or what also. haha. mark ruffulo's shows are always so sweet, he may not be handsome but he is certainly charming.

can love really be found between friends?

anyways...guys are really cheap. just heard that this group of people i know actually pays like 10bucks to touch some myanmar girl's boobs. oh gawd. how low can they get. its so damn disgusting and LC. i just cant believe my ears when i heard it, and of course all the lowdown ungentlemanly and male egoistic things you have done are ALL EXPOSED! i look down on people like you.

2005-11-16T06:48:00.000-08:00

we decided to remain neutral. and not get involved. to be selfish and think for ourselves. no way are we gonna be balls to be kicked around again. HELL NO!

why cant life be simpler. simple thoughts, simple life, simple friends...life would be much easier and happier.

forgot my ezlink today. total embarrassment when i didnt have enough coins to pay for the bus fare. i had to beg for 10bucks change. this kind soul gave me a dollar to pay for my bus fare. thank you! i love kind souls like him. =) people like them and the nice couple who returned my phone made singapore a nicer place.

ok. one thing i really cant stand. though i am not in city harvest now. but i still got to stand up for them. why do people have to like compare, "oh, my worship group sings better than S** H*"..."S** H* is so proud.."...its like whatever lah. this type of thing also want to compare. better than better lah. why do people have to be so sarcastic about it. call themselves christians. All these are individual thoughts, doesnt mean one person say something bad means CHC is bad and you have to listen. why dont you listen to the many many people out there who has something good to say instead?

brendon: dearest dearest! thank u for listening and sorry for bombing your bill. i know you wouldnt mind right! haha. you are the bestest pair of ear one could ever have... =) LOVE U!

2005-11-15T06:04:00.000-08:00

i freakin hate all these dumb ass conflicts that is going on in class. not really conflicts, but backstabs. its damn annoying, it happens every semester. every sem someone is the target.
like wth lah. things like that make me hate school so much.

anyway met rach for 5 mins today. I LOVE YOU RACHAEL HONEY! MUAH MUAH MUAH!

2005-11-12T21:48:00.000-08:00

my goodness! i caught sight of so many lovely bags on urbannymph.com ....girls, go check it out! but it cost like at least 50bucks for one lovely ear rings? too heavy for me to wear it... but i so got to get one of those bags. serene jie jie! go see! some of them is so you!

2005-11-11T11:13:00.000-08:00

too lazy to blog, but since i cant sleep i shall do something about it. photos soon! when this dumb blogspot decides to upload my photos at a faster speed.

thanks lionel for the super duper nice waffles thing...and charlie dvd! i watched it already! the squirrels are super cute. haha....I SHOULD HAVE WATCHED IT IN THE THEATRES ALREADY OK!

i want to be a kid again...no worries. i still remember when i was in pri school, at 5pm sharp everyday, me and my childhood friend called huifen will meet at the park with our bicycles and we will cycle and play at the park. then we would visit the pet shop and buy that dog magazine (whatever it is called). miss those simple and stress-less lifestyle. i want to sit on the swing and my maid will be pushing me behind then i will go real high! =) nice...

school is such a drag. 3hrs tutorial early in the morning at 8am and school ends only at 6pm. by 7pm, i would have knocked out on mommy's bed while trying to watch tv.

yay! KIM darling called just now. talk for 1 1/2 hrs? its been so so damn long since we last did that. Last night was talking to rach for like 3hrs because that silly slept at 7pm and woke up in the middle of the night and i couldnt sleep because of an itchy leg. haha..

laters! got to wake up at 10 tomorrow.

hello sunshine
take me to see the sunrise and rainbows
butterflies and flowers
sit on that swing and fly away
and wisper to me in the night
the words that i want to hear.

2005-10-30T19:32:00.000-08:00

first day of the boring lonely isolated SP world starts again. smart rach emailed her personal tutor yest to tell him she is overseas so she cant go to sch the whole of this week..smart. woke up, heavy rain and i figured that its tutorial anyway...so i skipped sch. thought i could see darling chien later..but damn, its the extra module class..and the tutorial is like 3hrs long. no motivation to go to sch lah. still in a holiday mood.

I MISS FOO HUEY CHIEN! she is the only person i look forward to seeing in school.

i watched like 3 dvds yest from 3pm all the way till 10pm..rest my eyes for 1hr, then continued from 11pm-1am. haha.. mama says i am crazy.

WAKEBOARDING TOMORROW! i cant wait. seriously... maple tan! we are so gonna gossip again and laugh at lion tock! haha. i miss bobby and kevin. but i bet they dont miss me..haha..when they see me and rach..they see a tape recorder that never stops talking about slashing prices.

2005-10-29T23:24:00.000-07:00

went to crystal jade for dinner with mommy and jie jie. yummy! never eat that for so long already..always and still my all time favourite. after dinner..we sat down and talk and talk and talk until quite late. =) mommy went crazy last night lah...spent like 400 bucks on shopping. ladies ladies....young or old, shopping is irristable.

2005-10-28T23:52:00.000-07:00

i got to stop this lifesyle. no more for me for at least the next one month. i dont want to die of liver problem. went hysterical yest and dont know why i had like so many cups of whatever that is... NO MORE! NO WAY! people dont psycho me anymore....

last day of work yesterday. YIPPEE! free now. not that i work alot or what, at least i dont have to wake up at 7am everyday and rush through my baths. i dont know why, but when i bid everybody goodbye and stuffs yesterday, theres this a little sad feeling in me. haha, wierd. not that i am close to them or what.

but school is starting. the next sem is gonna fly by so quickly. i must faithfully attend my lectures and tutorials and quit taking cabs. soon, i will be in year 3. thats damn fast, but i cant waiT! i want to get done with poly asap and get on to a new phase of life.

oh oh! REMINDER! MY FILM IS GOING TO BE AIRED ON ARTS CENTRAL this coming monday. the 31st of october at 9pm. PLEASE PROMISE YOU WILL WATCH IT!. haha.

2005-10-27T05:43:00.000-07:00

i was blog surfing today. read this someone's blog..and she didnt update her blog for months, so i just so happened to see her blog about kai when he was still in the hosp. it was damn saddening...suddenly, i'm like slapped back to reality again. thank God for the guys who have been keeping me company all the time. then i wanted to see blen's blog..i clicked, it opened, i caught a glance of the first few sentence then i crossed it. i just cant bring myself to do it yet.

why do we always only see the "light" only when something is gone for good. we know it, and yet we still do it. stupid human nature that can never be changed.

i was taking the train home that day, then i stood up to let this old lady sit..her hair was like all white and she couldnt stand properly. then this dumb ass guy so thick skin ok..can go and sit, i tell him straight in the face that i stood up to let the old lady sit, he can come and tell me "Oh, i didnt know" then he looked away. wth. stupid guys. selfish creatures.

i miss you so much again
i just saw you smiling sillily to me just now
sometimes, i feel as if you are so near me yet i cant see you
i am not going to cry anymore, but that doesnt mean i dont miss u anymore
i just want to love you in my memories

2005-10-26T17:50:00.000-07:00

met up with the guys, uncle, aunty and maple tan yest at wala after work. i enjoy it so much. maple tan was such a doodoo bird! enjoyed talking to her so much...after knowing her for like 3 yrs plus, i dont think i have ever talked like that with her before. =) dont worry maple, your secret is safe with me..i'm NOT like LION, dont know how to keep secrets one. haha. MAPLE! I LOVE YOU ALOT! tuesday tuesday!!

oh yes. LION was super nice. got me two big bagful of goodies from bangkok. i love that super gorgeous brown belt! the necklaces! and ear rings! and err...FOOD! tom yam soup! the pork floss thing! WOOO~! so i shall forgive him for bringing me to RA shows and performing striptease infront of everybody, as a result, traumatising us! BUT! the bracelet is like too big la. and he didnt buy for me *bling blings* which shawn tan reminded him to.

MOVIES at PS GV anyone? my ticket is expiring in 4 days! pls dont so kiam and watch and eeky empress please.

tomorrow is last day at work. i cant wait. working is super tiring. though i never do much things, but...try it. when u dont do anything, you feel even more tired. cant wait to get my pay..i will go hysterical. first thing i will do is retail theraphy! i have never been so hardworking during my hols all my life before, must reward myself. haha. my longest job...

2005-10-25T23:06:00.000-07:00

watch domino with chun wei, qingshun and shawn. the show is like SUPER DUPER ULTIMATELY BORING. i rate it 3/10. the comfort of the theatre is 1/10. I am already short, and yet i feel super squeezy. its something like empress...but better because there is not mosquitoes around! haha.

yay! LIONEL TOCK IS BACK FROM BANGKOK! that means i have a goody bag! haha...it better be better than the national day goody bag. =p

lionel, maple, qianx! WHEN IS MY WAKEBOARDING? HELLO! DONT BLUFF ME LEH. i wait super long already. my sea water and wakeboard is screaming for me already. i going to forget how to wakeboard already la.

result slip arrived yest. all B+, 1 C for damn feature writing. ok, i shouldnt be complaining, i was supposed to fail it. Got 2 B for my specialist dip. ok. mommy is pretty satisfied with the results. so ok then. =) improved like a zillion times compared to last sem. so i should be thankful.

boyfriend rach is back from switzerland..came home to recover from jet lag, and she is off to malaysia now. dumb ass. always go here and there while i am stucked here.

2005-10-23T00:27:00.000-07:00

had bbq at jie jie's house. gosh. we ate from 7pm to next day 4am? we couldnt finish the food, so we decided to play poker..the loser has to eat something. jie jie was the ultimate bbq winner..she never had so much beef in her entire life. haha. i had salad and it had tomatoes, capsicon( how do u spell it?)..yucks! you know i hate all those stuff..esp salad..its raw, cold and eeekkyy...i was eating halfway..forcing everything into my mouth, then when it came to the tomato part, i just puked everything out.

ok, and so we finished the bbq part..then came to desserts. shucks, i never had so much ice cream in such a long time already. i am scared now. ESP VANILLA ICE CREAM. no way!! then came the chips...then came water! oh my..nightmare. its like during the japanese occupation time the water treatment thing. i can feel how they felt, but of course they are 10 times worse. i had like 6 cups of water? i feel damn bloated..and you know, i dont like drinking water. yesterday was like my 4-5 days consumption of water.

met up with medeline and qian hui. nice..=) its been so long! we need more of these, but of course, this time...its quality time. only us! hopefully with kim too. she mia-ed.

mel: i promise you one day next week belongs solely to you. your house is like super far..can you not have house party? haha.

2005-10-20T02:01:00.000-07:00

i watched movie at empress yesterday. believe it or not. by the way..its that 'lao pok' theatre at CLEMENTI! watched "into the blue" its damn nice. maybe because paul walker was hot? so was jessica alba? great pair. the storyline was only so-so..but the sea is like so nice...i feel like learning diving now. SO BLUE SO CLEAR! all the fishies swimming around u! NICE! i want to stay by the beach and sell ice-cream with Y O U. our fantasy..=)

ok, back to the 'lao pok' theatre thing...I GOT like TEN MOZZIE BITES ON MY FEET! thanks so much...mosquito bites in a cinema. how nice..its supposed to be relaxing and enjoyable, but i couldnt sit still throughout the show. all thanks to jereme and hui hua. haha..

i'm freakin bored at work. although its nice to not do anything and get paid..but u feel so bad when you see everyone else so busy and you are there surfing the net and staring into space. and everyone starts gossipping about you. shit.

2005-10-17T22:24:00.000-07:00

i am so terrible bored. someone save me please. i have nothing to do and i must pretend to look like i am doing something. how pathetic. i've been like surfing the net for 2 hours already..."pretending to look busy". i am so so happy tomorrow is my off day...work two more days then its FRIDAY! I CANT WAIT!!! now i know why jie jie looks forward to weekends and holidays so much. i treasure them much more now.

i was reading this thing just now. working makes you obese cause staring at the comp and using the keyboard, makes your brain use up alot of glucose, hence making u feel extremely hungry. And when you just sit down and do you work, you are only losing 3 calories, but when you eat during lunch, you eat back another 220 calories. yeah...this is so bad. RESULTS: protruding bouncy tummy and an extremely huge bum.

someone please wakeboard with me thank you.please please please. i am craving for it. stupid rachael is not in town to company me...=p

i honestly hate shoes, my toes just recovered from a blister and now the blister is back.

2005-10-15T07:10:00.000-07:00

ok. long awaited update.

today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAELYN! raelyn turns two today..:) she was like a bride la. In the afternoon she was wearing this white dress like u know, wedding dinner that kind..then when her fake barney ( barney is supposed to be in purple but it turned out red ) cake arrived, she went to change to this purple dress..like you know, evening gown..to cut cake. oh my... then it was a usual eating session for the adults. haha.

to chun wei, my dream birthday =) haha: red & orange helium filled ballons floating on the ceiling( must cover the whole ceiling one). everybody dresses crazily & differently. a super nice and yummy delicious looking cake that looks super different and colourful. hahaaa. i know i am crazy. err..then...EVERYBODY MUST WEAR HAT?!? there must be champagne for me to pop. CANDLES! YES! PURPLE AND WHITE CANDLES! dont ask me why.. and, this thing i forgot what its called.u put lots of candies and confetti inside (money also acceptable), then u blindfold me, and i get to whack it down. haha. its damn fun! from what i see on TVs!! i want i want i want!

working everyday now. ONLY NOW then i know working is like so tiring. money is not easy to earn ok. shheesshh. bet all of you cant believe i am saying this. but at least it helps to pass my time and earn money at the same time. when i get my pay, i'm so gonna go crazy.

my feet needs feet theraphy badly. the skin is like peeling off real badly. blisters. ouch...thanks to high heels and shoes. they hurt..thats why i dont like wearing shoes. my poor feet suffers like mad. BIRKENSTOCK IS THE BEST! it soothes your feet and it looks good..everyone, please go and get one.

2005-10-09T05:18:00.000-07:00

church today was great. never felt like that for so long. its like i have been away from church and cell for almost one month already. evan is just so understanding, she's really like an angel sent to me and rach. i'm not going to run away from their calls anymore..

after church went to cut hair at shunji matsuo with rach...my goodness, i look like a coconut head now. shopped around with rach, and we got the same bag together! haha.

I LOVE HER! though she really makes me mad and gets on my nerves...she is the one who understands me most w/o me having to say it, she knows what i like and what i dont, she knows it when i am mad though i try to hide it, she knows my every thoughts and tries to help me solve it. i love staying over at her house, blasting our ipod and act stupid.. she would prepare me a set of toothbrush, contact lens solution, my set of pyjamas and stuff...everything laid there nicely in her toilet with scented flowers just like in a hotel. =) where can i find a friend like that.

best of all, she's like one of the few who bothers to call me often to make sure the friendship is still staying strong.

2005-10-08T01:16:00.000-07:00

i'm tired. my feet is dying. so are my eyes.

2005-10-04T08:20:00.000-07:00

went settlers yesterday. first time there. its like super cool..they have all the games there for you to play. and i got super excited and started talking and laughing super loudly..haha. deprived childhood.

kien tat has a tv on top of his head! hahaha.

hui hua is the best, her drawing is like super cute. haha. (see, i didnt throw your face)

neo junxiong is the pro-est of all. that obviously looked like a pair of scissors, but he said it looked like a spoon. how smart is that?

tock lionel and his so awful drawing that no one can even make that out. his flowers looked like hands.

went breko's for a drink after that, played some murderer, heart attack game. this is what bored holidayers do. haha. =)

yay! i am going wakeboarding on 21st! to celebrate serene jie jie's birthday. so exciting. i want to see how they do it. i just have that strong feeling it will be damn hilarious.

i'm super bored. if only i have SCV installed at home, my eyes will be glued to the TV 24/7.

2005-10-01T08:23:00.000-07:00

stomp was damn good! i love that joker guy in green who is bald. he's super funny! i enjoyed it so so much. love those big guys on top of the mega huge bins..its like super cool. oh oh, then there is this small boy sitting behind me, after the show he was singing missy elliot's "music makes u lose control, music makes you lose control". oh my. he is like only pri 3/4...when i was that age, i didnt even know backstreet boys was. and that boy knows like missy elliot..wow. kids these days, they are more 'in' then me.

after stomp-ing, went to aunty's place. ate alot...the drumlets were super delicious..missed them. remember that last time me and kai will always bug niati to cook them for us to eat with maggie mee. anyway, it was a nice catching up session. =) aunty was also like damn nice, she got everyone a children's day present. so sweet.

2005-09-30T08:11:00.000-07:00

yes! the time has finally come for me. the end of my exams! but i think i totally screwed the last paper...but who cares, its over!! =)

stomp-ing tomorrow with mommy and daddy..yay! super excited. have been looking forward to it.. love watching plays and musicals. a pity we didnt catch les miserables in london the other time. miss moulin rouge. miss saturday night fever with kai.

holidays are here..i am so going to try my best to become a yoga master by the end of this hols. haha...yah right. if only.

raelyn is having her 2yrs old birthday party soon. its like so cool. last year she had a party, with helium filled balloons decorating the whole house, this big lovely minnie mouse cake (courtesy of me and jie), and loads of presents. this year she is going to have dont know what cake, a bithday party again, a beautiful cd-rom made by her mommy, a lovely sweet invitation card even! *ENVY* she is like the princess dowager of the entire Wan and Wong family.

huihua!: you owe me vcds to watch! and photo taking sessions....
LIONEL TOCK CHUN WEI!!: MY MOVIE AND SUGAR POP CORNS!
to my 2 JIE JIEs!: WAKEBOARDING LEH!?!?

i am so mad. when theres something then you bombard my phone with calls, if not, you just go missing. really makes me wonder why i bother to bear all this stuff for you...

2005-09-25T05:21:00.000-07:00

i am so so blessed. :) i cant be more thankful that i found my handphone. its like my favourite phone, most sentimental value, most memorable and i sticked with this phone for the longest.

this morning rach came to pick me up and i dropped my hp in the taxi. i was like super upset, i nearly burst out in tears at church, i couldnt concentrate during service. MOMMY kept calling my hp, until finally this really nice and honest jap couple picked up the phone and returned it to me. =) whats worst is THEY FOUND THE PHONE but DIDNT TELL ME! they wanted to teach me a lesson not to be so careless.

first i lost my ipod shuffle, then rach was like scolding me and nagging all the way, after that she lost her zen micro..haha...then she complained to me and i just ask her to keep quiet and stop bothering me..then she told me, you better be careful, you're gonna lose something next week..and i really did. shucks. whatever happens to her will surely happen to me..but nevertheless, i still love her. ;)

2005-09-24T06:47:00.000-07:00

law wasnt too scary..=) i have lost my studying momentum. my eys are so tired and my brain is dried off its juice...haha. i am so counting down to my freedom. party fun and more fun!!

longest yard was like damn nice and funny. it was really like a stress reliever at that time. feel so motivated to keep fit after watching that show..though i am not a guy, i also feel like playing american football! so fun....suddenly feel like playing netball, captains ball, tennis.... .... havent sweat healthily for a long time.haha..

ADAM SANDLER is cute. the way he looks with his small eyes and you know..sometimes when he talks, he kinda mumbles..the small eyes and mumbling like fits him so well into that cute personality. ok i am crazy. forget it.

raelyn was like super duper sweet and cute on friday...she automatically came to kiss me. then i sat on the sofa..and she kept walking in circles around the table, when she reached me each time...she will kiss me. first time!

2005-09-21T23:48:00.000-07:00

haha..i so got to blog about this. i have this girl-friend who is the same age as me studying in SP..no not in my class and course. she actually agreed to an arranged marraige by her parents. omg. her future husband is like 23yrs old, a doctor in India. how cool is that. someone is actually so obedient to this extent. she even said when she goes aust to study next time, she will bring her grandma along...to cook for her. omg. unbelieveable. i couldnt stop laughing.

tomorrow's law! super scared. i hate law. law is my nightmare.

2005-09-19T21:14:00.000-07:00

first paper was damn demoralising lah. first i had a stomach ache early in the morning when i woke up to study, then it was ok..then i was studying in school...8.45, my paper is at 9am, my stomach started to hurt like mad again. did the paper, i was like damn happy when i was doing Section A...then when it came to section B... i was like "shucks, i am so going to fail this section." super sad. i studies the hardest for this paper and its only the first.

pray for my law. my nightmare.

2005-09-16T21:50:00.000-07:00

argh. the world is pms-ing. skipped yoga last min..fed up. decided to go rachael's house earlier. staying over at her place today to mug..=) then go to church togather tomorrow morning. this is so bad, i've not been to church and cell for 3 weeks.

haze: i never M.I.A ok. you just didnt catch me..and i promise i didnt receive your phonecall! promise to spend some loving moments with you after my exams. we will ring MEL up and bug her till she goes broke! haha.

HONEY!!: special dedication to you to let you know that i am still alive in the midst of dying. argh...i miss you so bad. no one showers me with love now! haha...please remember my presents! and save up money..I am going to call u soon soon soonn!

Brendon: please take care of my mel..or i will shave off all your hair.

2005-09-16T05:25:00.000-07:00

argh. today marks the end of so many people's misery except we SP-ERS. we are so slow. cant stand it. and that carrine seo has to rub into it...EVIL! somemore she can come and act cute say she look like my niece..so cute. oh my. i must expose her.

i want to watch the longest yard. its been ages since i watch a movie...i cant even remember what show is it.

to my fellow friends in NP and NYP: please read my msn nick. it reads clearly...
PLEASE DONT HOLIDAY WITHOUT ME

2005-09-15T03:58:00.000-07:00

came home at 11+ this morning and headed straight for my bed..but i didnt really have a deep sleep. sad. the weather is just too hot. so humid..and all the mozzysss...i hate them. they are so irritating.

had a nice long chat with pretty and hui hua. i love it. its been long since i last had such chats.

lionel: ARE U STILL ALIVE?

HONEY!!: i miss u! when are your hols & when are u flying back. sorry..my phone sometimes is
abit cranky so didnt get your call and your msn timings and mine are like all out. miss
you like mad. and oh...seriosuly, i dont know how to make a call to aussie. haha.
oopps!

2005-09-14T05:26:00.000-07:00

exams is drawing so near. and i just cant remember anything i have studied. goodness. i so have a feeling my results will be full of Cs and a few Ds this time. didnt do well for my CA, projects were ok..please Bless me.

i was shocked when i heard raelyn say "head, knees, tummy, eyes, hair, hands..." today. didnt realised how smart she was until today.

ok i am going to meet pretty maid and hui hua to study now. will blog again tomorrow.

2005-09-12T11:50:00.000-07:00

Chinese garden Lantern Festival.

me and raelyn and her cute ponytail!

serene jie jie. me and raelyn

me and sweetie pie raelyn!

me and jie jie flying. haha. righttt...

WE are ELEGANT LADIES. hahaha. trying to...

ROAR!

ME AND MUMMY!!

me. serene jie jie. elene jie jie

beutiful swans. the colour is so pretty

jereme.qingshun. GUESS WHO. me. hui hua
ACT CUTE MUMMY
Mummifying in action
I so love this photo. Mummy neo should like charge 5 bucks per photo

2005-09-09T20:26:00.000-07:00

first time in my entire life i only had 1hr of sleep. result: you start speaking no sense stuff and doing senseless things that makes you want to wear the biggest shades in the world to cover your face. but it was fun. time passes so fast. now i am grouchy. dont talk to me, i will scream at you. my eyes have been reduced to half its size, eye bags grown by thrice its size.

Mugging sucks. its super tiring. but no way am i going to fail any module this sem and let my 1500 bucks plus alot of sweat go to waste.

was at west coast park mac studying with pretty maid, hui hua, sky and jereme from 10pm-6am then we started playing from 6 onwards. haha...will upload some very nice picts of my pretty mummified maid neo soon. its super hilarious. definitely worth the entertainment value.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL TEO KIEN TAT!
you are 19 now, but i'm still 17! =)

did dma just now. my goodness. i cant believe i am doing this crap at this point in time when everyone else is studying hard for their exams, we are still stucked with projects. whats wrong with sp man. they think we are some super robo student or something.

i feel like playing tennis. anyone interested?

2005-09-08T05:56:00.000-07:00

yipeeee..i am finally done with conb and mmr. halfway through cc, have not touched on FW. oh gawd. save me. stayed in school to rush through mmr today, everyone is so tired now. dont even have the energy to walk. i'm going to turn in early tonight for the battle tomorrow. haha. hopefully i still have that bit of energy left.

i want sleep. i need sleep. i want to sleep!! no amount of top grade eye cream is gonna help my eyebags.

mooncakes are nice. so are lanterns. i saw my neighbour's house while i was walking home..his carpark ceiling was hanged with lanterns..so pretty. all the lights. this sunday i'm going chinese garden for lantern festival. so exciting. my first time there & also my first time celebrating lantern festival.

oh ya. i was listening to my ipod that day and it hanged. can you believe it. an ipod hanged? even my friend got a shock. he was like.. "what! how on earth can an ipod get hanged?". haha. i dont know is it me and my unlucky hands or what. but everything that goes under my touch is doomed! serious. never go theme parks with me too..it will surely rain. test and proven.

huihua: YAY! I AM GOING TO SEE YOU TOMORROW. FINALLY!

2005-09-06T03:56:00.000-07:00

this is the 3rd or 4th time i dreamt that you didnt leave us. each time, the scenario was different. the 1st time, i dreamt you went to the movies with me. 2nd i dreamt you got well. 3rd i dreamt of something not so nice..shall not talk about it. last night, i dreamt you were well and many sweet and beautiful things happened.what happened in my dream seemed to be the scenario it would be if you really did got well.

it seemed so real.i want to just carry on sleeping forever and ever if thats the only way i get to see you. for once in such a long time, last night in my dream i felt my heart so light and all my burdens were lifted away. i dont know how to explain it...but the dream was really like reality. i hate to believe that it was actually really just a dream.

you're my past tense and still my present tense but will never be my future tense.

2005-09-05T04:26:00.000-07:00

new skin. new look. no my blog is not screwed up. only someone as silly as huihua will think that my blog screwed up. haha.

i miss my hp. i cant wake up with chun wei's phone. his alarm is....so soothing to the ears that i dont even hear it. making me always late for my classes and appointments. my black eyed peas alarm is a sure wake up alarm, it even makes you jump out of bed. Please take care of my precious phone in the meantime.

looking forward to the holidays...i have planned out some stuffs which i am dying to do already.
1) get a job and earn some money
2) shop shop shop shop shop!
3) wakeboarding
4) be a yoga master
5) since i cant travel anywhere far this year..hope to at least go sun way lagoon since chien says
its nice and fun. anyone else want to join in the "fun"?
6) meet up with my precious brendon who is finally back from aussie
7) a so hard to get dinner with kim

kim: i miss you so damn alot.

brendon: pls remember to buy all those stuff which i asked you to. haha. i miss you too! come
back and lose some weight with me. you are growing so fat there with all the burgers.

2005-09-03T21:06:00.000-07:00

went west coast park yesterday. watched people eat from dinner to supper to breakfast. thats how long i stayed there.

anyone interested in overnight mugging starting from the week after next, please let me know. =)

2005-09-02T08:24:00.000-07:00

I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you.

suga, i miss you so.

2005-09-01T08:04:00.000-07:00

my new possessions for the week:
- green top
- white tank top
- topshop bag (courtesy of H*****)
- ear ring (courtesy of melly sweetheart)

that makes me a happy happy person. =)

wants:
- To turn 18
- DRIVING LISCENCE!
- more birkenstocks. they soothe my feets. really.
- reuben morgan to strum his guitar and sing to me
- Sponsored trip to wakeboarding
- have more time
- BLENHEIM TAN RIKAI to spend my birthday with me.

i cant wait to be done with the exams. its killing the little brains out of me. which stupid school in Singapore would make you be tied down to like 5 projects still when its like approaching the exams? dont even have time to study lah. if i fail any module this sem....dip shite is going to kick me out of the class and steal away my $1500 for just 2 modules.

had snowskin mooncake from Marriot hotel for the 2nd time in my life. and its so nice. i take back whatever i said about it tasting awful and stuff.
raelyn is so smart. i under estimated her intelligence. she actually knows her A-Z already.

and...i have finally graduated from CIC. time to take my next step. but i probably want to get baptized first. still considering...any enlightenment?

2005-08-30T08:12:00.000-07:00

ok. my fellow nice folks...if u happen to see me online for more than 1/2 and hour, please chase me to go study. =)

i'm getting so lazy. daddy has to work morning this two weeks..waking up early every day, walking to the bus stop, change bus twice to get to school is getting such a chore. have to drag myself out of bed every morning..before i leave the house, i have to spray my facial spritz 5times to really wake me up first before i go. terriblleee.....i wish i just had a personal chauffeur to fetch me anywhere i want to.

yay! lantern festival is coming. family will be going to the chinese garden lantern thing..so exciting. from what i can recall, i have never been there before. i'm so gonna relive my childhood and carry a lantern on that day. the candle kind! more original..and yes! eat my pig thing...i love that much more to mooncakes..and i totally detest snowskin mooncakes. the taste is so fake. like i am eating flour like that. yucks!

went for a joke this evening. something just came over me and i just felt like jogging. i must be mad. yes. but it was good...healthy lifestyle. shall try to keep that up whenever i get to go home early. getting so fat and lazy.

during break today. was sharing with chien and xw something. upsetting but a relief to my heart. the past few days feeling damn moody again at night..finally i am able to let it all out on someone. glad that chien was willing to hear and was so encouraging. so sweet of her. i simply love her to the max. simple actions means the world to me at that moment.

i dont know why i miss you so much, and...i dont know why i still feel your touch.
i still remember how you walk, smile, laugh, look angry and do all that sweet things for me.
i still feel as if you are near me, but i cant see you.
i feel as if you are beside me watching me...
though we appear joyful, things are not the same without you around.
your prescence means so much to everyone.
without you, everything just seems to go wrong.

where are you now?
how are you doing?
is your home beautiful?
is it peaceful up there?
are you watching over us?
can you listen to our hearts speak?

i want to ride the waves with you again.
lie on the sand like the sun never sets.
sing & dance with you like never before.
play our games as if we were kid.
look after me like i was your child and you're my daddy.

hugging me and wiping my tears, looking at me in the eyes and say "everythings okay..."

"i believe i can fly...i believe i can touch the sky!" do you still remember and believe?

2005-08-29T05:44:00.000-07:00

i totally exposed my horrible art skills to chien today during dip shite class. we were suppose to listen to this song and picture out an mtv and DRAW it out. oh my..i cant draw for peanuts sake. those who know me, you should know it. i cant sing, dance and draw for nuts. the rest still can be forced. haha.

after school went down to chinatown with chien to take photos for dma. i certainly love the time gossipping with her. its been long since i last had a romantic one on one date with her. she's such a darling! =)

i kinda hate school for the fact that there are always so many conflicts here and there. you never know when someone is just going to take a knife and stab you in the back. not now, but you will never know when you will be the next target. hate all these hypocrisy going about in school.

2005-08-27T22:20:00.000-07:00

ah. i cant believe i wasted my saturday away just like that. spent the whole saturday walking around town waiting for people...then the people came. and i got cheated. haha. so in the end went to NYDC to eat. and yes...TOCK CHUN WEI has the same colour ipod mini as me. copycat! but since he has a "priceless" (pun intended) present for me..i shall forgive him. =)

exams are in two weeks time. gosh..i feel bad about this sem. everything is like so difficult and i have 4 papers this sem. and up till now, i still have countless of projects to do...like...5?!? wth. sp is crazy lah. where got time to study!

went to church with mama today. its so different from chc. i'm not used to it. chc is still the best church for me.

2005-08-24T09:33:00.000-07:00

The Black Eyed Peas will be coming to Singapore on the 20 Sept. and i am going to give them a miss again this time. argghh..cause its the exam week.

Was at Rach's house just now doing FW, she was scanning through my ipod and blasting the music on her mini speakers..it was playing Black Eyed Peas's "my hump"...and she said..."Its so cool! it makes you feel as if you are shopping in the supermarket"...then she proceeded to dance her bimbotic dance at the "supermarket". yeah. lame. she made me laugh till my face was like damn red and hot. come to think of it..it really did give u this very bimbotic feel.

Brought Paris Royalty out for a walk just now, she was dressed in this really pretty Minnie Mouse sailor like dress. =) CUTE! and she wee wee-ed on rach's blanket. haha....the look on rach's face was so hilarious. oh..did i mention that crazy rachael actually named her 3mths old silky terrior which she has already gave away.."RUSSIA". what?!?

ok.i'm so tired. i am going to hibernate now. i am feeling so much happier today. compared to yest. after reading some........ ................. only my precious are worth mentioning. to all my precious! i love you.. =)

* LIONEL TOCK CHUN WEI: you owe me my priceless gift for being the lucky 1000th visitor
at your blog. Thank you. pls dont spend too much...my birthday
is in 4months time. pls save up for my gucci,LV, christian dior...

2005-08-24T02:18:00.000-07:00

hello folks! please kindly tune in to ARTS CENTRAL on the 31st of OCTOBER 2005 at 9pm for my short short 1min of fame on screen and my 3mins of off-screen fame(my video production). THANK YOU for your support. yes i know theres still a long time, will remind everyone again..

today the arts central peeps came down to do the interview with us. =) nice. they are nice people. i thought that the camerawoman cum producer is so cool! i want to be like her one day. she's my motivation.
oh! and i thought that the boom mike guy was cute. only if he cut his hair. he looks super young lah. i think he is on internship..poor guy.

FW CA tomorrow. doom. please wish me luck.

2005-08-23T05:23:00.000-07:00

*this section has been edited for some reasons. if u have read it then too bad. if not, dont ask me what is it*

oh btw, this blog is meant purely for my beloveds kim, med, qian, tocky lionel, bro qingshun, junxiong, kien tat, hui hua, mel & gang my fellow fairsians, chc mates, sp mates, carrine and my family...THATS ALL. so any other people who feel not so at ease with the contents here..."its my blog, just let me whine all i want." only those people whom i have mentioned above have all the rights in the world to tag me and criticise. thank you for your cooperation.

so sick of specialist dip shite. so far, i have not learnt anything other than how to search things online change some words and paste it in microsoft powerpoint then present it. i dont know where i am heading in that course. is conceptualising something u can learn? at least not to me. you may learn how to figure out what is the concept..but you cant learn how to come up with a concept. outcast in the class.everyone in that class is just like so brainy with all that perfect english accent and stuff. while me and chien are just sitting there in the class w/o anyone even noticing if we are there or not. whatever we say is just like the passing wind.

i am so glad i have chien with me.

2005-08-21T22:07:00.000-07:00

i am so gonna miss this. goodbye WB! goodbye bobby!

we are the MADRID supporters..as if. the shirt is free. what to do.

me and sweetheart paris. she's so cute, loveable and obedient. love her to the core.

Me. bf rach. paris royalty.

SHE'S PARIS ROYALTY!

spent my entire saturday with dear rachael from 11am to 11pm. love the time spent with her. though some things are different now, i promise i wont dump her. but i will help pull her back to who she was and who she really is.

rained super heavily on sunday. me and rach was practically running in the rain, into the puddle of muddy water from church to the taxi stand. terrible sight. we will never do it again. looked extremely lc.

straight after xw. sy and wc left, i plunged straight into bed and sleep. now! i feel so good after sleeping for 14hours. skipped school today. thought i was going to die last night. i was like a volcano inside and an ice mountain outside. stayed home today. going to continue with my beauty sleep again later.

2005-08-18T08:22:00.000-07:00

first of all...i want to thank MEL sweetheart for the lovely ear rings. thanks for going through the trouble of buying it for me then taking a photo of it and mms me the pict just to make sure i like it. =) its really sweet of you. and to harris: thanks for the bag. i got alot of presents blessings lately. muahahaa....

sweet rachael came to find me at SB today. wrote to me plenty and plenty of letter..like some love letter like that. haha. it was collected over time, about her updating me about her life when i have not met her for weeks. then she gave me some nougerts in a netted bag with scented flowers and stones. :) i thought it was really really sweet and thoughtful of her. simple actions like that make me feel that life aint that bad after all.

came home around 8 plus close to 9pm today. stayed in school to rush through dma. first i thought it was nice..next i think our storyboard looks damn messy. but its ok...the concept is there can already. 1 down, 5 more to go... thats like still hell alot. i hate projects...i hate exams....i hate poly. its not as relaxing and easy as people make it out to be. definitely no.

2005-08-17T06:56:00.000-07:00

after countless of tries. i finally got the music up. simply love that song. "God bless the broken road by Rascal Flatts".

finally bought my ipod mini in silver. =) i am overjoyed. life without my mp3 player is terrible. MRT rides are so boring. so are my nights. no more singing to myself and driving people nuts.

I engraved that at the back. =) i just love it so much.

2005-08-16T06:58:00.000-07:00

so tired. all the projects at hand is driving me nuts. everyday i go home with the feeling that my eyeballs are going to drop out and i can practically walk with my eyes closed now. not enough sleep + dry contact lens + stress = eyeballs drops out!

and stupid 154 never fails to make me wait for at least 25mins when i am feeling so tired. stupid transport system. Singapore is so small yet it takes like forever for the bus to come. hate it. COMFORT is still the best comfort.

ATTENTION! my group's livewire project on 'inspiration in death' got chosen too! it will be aired on Arts Central soon...i think. but...i am not appearing lah. i also not the actress. i am the wonderful fantastic behind the scene crew. =) haha. so all my folks out there..please catch it!

2005-08-14T01:11:00.000-07:00

lost my ipod shuffle. booo...:( was a gift from jie jie. sigh.

2005-08-12T08:07:00.000-07:00

I set out on a narrow way many years ago..

Hoping I would find true love along the broken road.

But I got lost a time or two, wiped my brow and kept pushing through..

I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you.

Every long lost dream led me to where you are.

Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars..

Pointing me on my way into your loving arms...

This much I know is true..

That God blessed the broken road, that led me straight to you..

I think about the years I spent just passing through.

I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you

But you just smile and take my hand

You've been there you understand

It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true.

Every long lost dream led me to where you are..

Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars..

Pointing me on my way...into your loving arms...

This much I know is true.

That God blessed the broken road..

That led me straight to you.

Now I'm just rolling home, into my lover's arms..

This much I know is true.

That God blessed the broken road

That led me straight to you.

2005-08-12T01:09:00.000-07:00

bad day. horrible day. sorry everybody.
come home only, clumsy me tripped over raelyn's bicycle and fell.

Raelyn and jie jie's bf nephew at West Coast Park Macdonalds enjoying themselves like mad. envy....i want to be a kid again.

2005-08-11T08:22:00.000-07:00

today kien tat kept calling me a CHAO TA YOGA woman. lalala...irritating...then i came online and he called me a malay. i am determined to buy whatever whitening lotion available in the market and apply it like mad. i am going to buy some Whitening mask or something. even as i am blogging, he is still complaining on msn that i am so tanned. stupid KEN TUCK!

i am feeling very fed up with you.my patience level is like up there already.whya re you talking like that now, not like you didnt in the past but its getting worse.please spare a thought, if not for me...but for others. as your friend, i understand and i can tolerate. but what about others? please think.

went to the birkenstock store today. disappointed with their collection. i thought they expanded and hence would have more designs, but sad to say..no. love this topshop bag so much..=)) ok. stop that shopping addiction. i managed to stop it for awhile, but its coming back. bad bad bad.

i think i am going to die soon.

2005-08-10T08:08:00.000-07:00

started of the day with MMR. gosh. the surveys are making me blind and blur. me and chien was like 1,2,2,1,2,1,1,1,1,2,2,2.....eh..nonono...lets start again..2.1.2.2.3.2.1.1....ARGH! !@%*#%*!#. frustrating. went to town, walk walk, eat, study a little while waiting for my yoga to start.

the stupid teacher teach until so fast,this is like a beginner class lah! he thought we so fast rubberband already, ask us bend until like 360 degrees. he was like pushing my back like nobody's business. for a moment i thought my back was going to break any lower i go. i promise i will never go for his lessons again. NEVER!

after yoga rushed down to suntec in a cab for CIC class. pastor audrey was so sweet to give me and wesley make up class personally.=) the class was GOOD! cant wait to finish CIC and start ministering.

have been spending tons of money on cabbies. i got to cut down. bad! i seriously deserve some share with comfort delgro.

cant wait for friday!! finally get to meet my boyfriend rachael after like dont know how many weeks? she m.i.a for so long...miss her so much!!! one moment i am like meeting her 7days a week, next moment, i dont get to see and hear from her for like weeks.
i miss her.imissher.i miss her. over time, she has gone crazy and bought a dog carrier bag from GUESS for a bling bling 189 bucks! how crazy is that.

i dont know why but i feel that you've changed. i can barely talk to you like i did before. i know you are still you. but the way you talk, act and behave is different now. you are drifting away with everything and everyone, not physically but your heart is drifting. i want the old you back. i rather you be mad then be a b***o.

i think i am going blind. i dont know why my vision is so blur even with my contacts on. my eyes always feels like it is popping out and if i roll it too much, it will roll out. my vision without specs is 20%, with contacts is only like 75%. something is wrong. got to check my eyes soon. any opticians out there to offer free consultation?

toad tod is so exciting to go TIOMAN over the weekends. cant believe it. and here we are rotting in a nice island with fake beaches and plastic bag-ful of seawater called SINGAPORE. you better da-pao me a luggage full of seashells, weeds, seaweed, coral, sand, salt or whatever home for me. or else i am going to buy that "THING" from toy 'r' us.

2005-08-09T04:58:00.000-07:00

SEXY! he's hot.

SHAWN TAN eating yu zha kuey but trying to hide like mad. he's shy...

TOD. benjamin. stirling.

he gets excited over hermit crab. overgrown kid.

his dream handbag. he loves it to bits.

cute bag there. guess who is that. i am not allowed to say, or else my secret will be out. haha.

MY HERO! BATMAN!

2005-08-07T07:49:00.002-07:00

my beloved lover liam

MY MAID NEO!

ACT CUTE

GAY!! kien tat and maid neo

cheryl.me.huihua at the indoor stadium starving. FOP!

me and beloved hui hua at CRYSTAL JADE!

tock lionel.me.huihua at Tango's

YES! i have uploaded my photos under constant pressure and persuation to upload them.

today is City Harvest's 16th Anniversary was so fantastic, to me, it was even better than FOP. the crowd is insane. for the past few days i have been seeing and surrounded by tons and tons of people. dont know is it Singapore is too small or what. terrible. i nearly fainted of heat and lack of oxygen in the queue. people pushing, smelly sweat and armpits. oh my...

bought and hearing CHC's very own CROSS cd. its so so nice and homely. the songs are familiar and captivating. simply love it. i decided to buy the dvd as well. =) next weekend is pledging week. time to be broke. but its ok. its for a good cause. hopefully CHC can get their new building in the marketplace for the marketplace to penetrate the marketplace as soon as possible to house many more youths and adults.

2 more days to holiday! YAY! i love holidays. who dont....

Yours is the kingdom and power..forever ever. Glory and honour, be unto you! Yours is the kingdom and power..let your will be done on earth. AS IT IS IN HEAVEN TODAY!

2005-08-06T09:02:00.000-07:00

have had a hectic week. everyday waking up early and coming home late. goodness. i feel so tired. my eyeballs are dropping out. i need sleep!! badly!

went fop with huihua,sim and tock lionel yesterday. it was awesome, but the songs arent as good as i expected it to be. but it was still awesome. =) we starving like mad, called for a cabbie to rush down to holland to meet the rest and grab some food to eat. I FINALLY got to each my favourite CRYSTAL JADE! yay!! i was so nice ( i dont know what came over me) to treat tock and hh to dinner. haha. but its ok. you find joy in giving more than receiving. met up with the rest....i & tock actually mistook sprite voldka for lemon water and we gulped it down. haha. unbelievable. meeting up with hh is so much fun..we're always busy taking photos. will upload it again when i am more recharged.

today went wakeboarding with tock,qingshun,tock's sis and cousins. it was ok. headed down to town and watched the best movie ever made in history. everyone please watch it. you will be greatly amazed at how good the movie is. not kidding. its called MAREBITO.and now.. i am going to recharge my battery. i am dead flat.

2005-08-04T08:41:00.000-07:00

oh my. yoga has reached a higher level. stretched to the max..like a rubber band about to snap. gosh. the whole class was like balancing on one foot. but there i was laughing cause i was the only one swaying and moving. when everyone closed their eyes..i opened mine to observe if everyone really did obey instructions. i am so not stretched that my palms cant even touch the ground with my legs not bent. terrible. and now my tighs are aching like mad...so does my abs. not like i have one to begin with.

love MANGO'S new season of clothes. nice. love their jackets. so rustic yet classy. eyed on this jeans..thinking of whether to buy it or to save the money for WB. offer some advice please all you nice people out there.

FOP is tomorrow. huihua darling, private C W TOCK and cheryl sweets is going with me. =) yay. so excited for tomorrow. if i get rejected. i am going to be so disappointed and dejected.

2005-08-03T08:47:00.000-07:00

really tired today.woke up to go to school at 8.am today, tomorrow and the day after...to do stupid editing.gosh.plus..my whole body is aching from terrible yoga combat yesterday, hence, my super pms-y mood today. going for my hatha vinyasa yoga tomorrow. haha...hope they wont make me stretch like mad like yesterday, or i will really die. my muscles is just going to dissolve. this proves how unhealthy i am....my muscles have not been stretched for like 2yrs plus plus plus. terrible.

watch manhunt just now. woooo...i hope Jon Johnson wins. although i know he won...i couldnt resist the temptation to check the results out on the net. he just has this exotic wild look that is so not typical model like that kevin has or have an irritating stuck up attitude like Rob...he's just like so humble and real. America's Next Top Model rocks too. haha...yes.i couldnt resist temptation..and found out my beloved favourite model won! weeeeeeee............................she's so cool. her hair is so cool. her face is like so icy and potrays this x-factor in her eyes. love it. i shall not reveal who it is..before i get murdered by some people for leaking it out.

Deep and meaningless...

I dont know why i miss you so much.
I dont know why i still feel your touch.
You left me feeling high and dry...
With nothing, but a question...WHY?
I guess you went another direction...
leaving me with nothing but a dead connection.

You walked away leaving me in this mess..
There are many things left to remind me...
of a love that I just cant leave behind me.

my love for you is deep and meaningless.
I want to relive what we had.

2005-08-01T06:00:00.000-07:00

first day of school after the hols. i dont know why but i feel so tired. felt so super drowsy during dma lecture and specialist dip class. gosh. tired tired tired!!

signed up with TrueYoga at pacific plaza there for yoga/pilates/dance class...yay. its time to keep healthy. not only growing old, but fat too. time to do something about it. the package is like really good. 139bucks a month for unlimited no. of classes plus they provide me towels and mega huge toilets and locker. not bad. definitely a better bargain than my current one at Studio Wu which is at 70 bucks a month for pilates only at once a week. rachael will not be joining me so hopefully chien can :)

great. finally done with that live wire crap. ok. partially. at least we're finally done with filming. thats good news. editing is the next nightmare. but oh well..i think i will sit back and relax more..i really know penuts about editing.

2005-07-31T08:49:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED SWEETHEART PRETTY LOVELY FAVOURITE QIANX!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

I LOVE YOU MY DEAR GIRL!

sorry for being so busy lately, but our timings just all clash.=(

but i just want you to know, you are CONSTANTLY in my thoughts...

and ALWAYS in my heart!

LOVE YOU TRUCKLOADS! SMUAKS!

2005-07-29T23:45:00.000-07:00

i can stand all kinds of pain except stomach pain.
hate them to the core. arghhh....

today's weather is so perfect for sleeping. snuggling under your thick warm blanket, hugging your bolster....=) nice. and start dreaming. haha. i love dreams. i dont mind living in dreams even if its a nightmare, cause they are so exciting. those who know me, u should know i have the wierdest ghost story nightmares that are so stupidly funny yet scary at the same time. plus the fact that i can literally feel painful, ticklish or even laugh in my dream..haha.i love them. so fun. especially when i become some police officer chasing some baddies, it becomes like a dream come true. but i think i would still prefer a dream that makes me smile and when i open my eyes in the morning i will still be smiling.

i'm addicted to:
1) Grape biscuits!!!
2) Lifehouse's "blind"
3) Alterbridge's "down to my last"
4) Reuben Morgan's song cause they calm my soul

I was never the right one to dare to dream.
It's funny what this life has done to me now.
You were always the only...to help me see that was a road I must find...
A road that was mine..
but I'm down to my last..I'm standing here alone.
Looking back on it all, I'm down to my last...
I'm ready but I'm wrong and I'm blind to it all.

2005-07-29T10:01:00.000-07:00

just watched some super old bimbotic vcd shows with my serene jie jie. oh my.she couldnt even catch most of the jokes and what they were doing..why?!? because she's grown out of that kind of shows already.hahaha..just kidding. =)

went for cell today. nice. i love it. just that i was super fidgitive cause my back was aching like mad..and my legs were totally numb. sometimes..i just wish i have some musical talents. i always fantasise of playing the guitar and singing. just too bad. i cant sing. when i start singing..the birds will really fly away..whatever cockcroaches or lizards there are, they will also run. even tortise who walks at 8km/hr will start sprinting at 80km/hr. thats how bad it is. i just cant play guitar for peanuts sake too. my teacher gave up one me the other time. my fingers are either too fat or something, they just cant hold one string at a time.

aiyah. anyway! MY FAVOURITE HILLSONGS AND DELIRIOUS IS COMING TO TOWN!!! WOOHOOO!!! i am so excited. i have been wwaiting for this for years. the last one i went to was like 5yrs ago? festival of praise is next week at the indoor stadium on fri, sat and sun. please come alrights my sweethearts...=) definitely something that is not to be missed. i assure you.
and sunday is CITY HARVEST 16 YEARS ANNIVERSARY! they have gone a long way and is continuing to grow both in numbers and in God's blessings. ;)

cant wait for next week.

2005-07-29T02:24:00.000-07:00

the thought of all the "forggies" make me want to puke.

a million cockcroaches flying and crawling everywhere.

the cold blooded rough skin pale looking green thing with a long tail called lizards running everywhere.

a thousand fat flies flying around you.

many white flies circling round and round your head.

seeing millipedes, centipedes..whatever creepy crawlies crawling out of your drain.

YUCKS! DISGUSTING! I FEEL ITCHY NOW.

2005-07-27T20:55:00.000-07:00

watched stealth with qingshun and private tock yesterday. the show is ok. love the plane..so cool. i wish i can fly it. like jamie foxx in the movie. =)
right lionel???!?!? i am going to teach you one day...hahaha. we supposedly shared popcorns. but they selfishly ate everything themselves.

oh did i mention that jamie foxx's body is like super toned. especially her butt. nice.

finally went for my hair cut at supercuts yesterday. =) thanks qingshun for waiting like dont know how many hours for me. i bet if it was lionel, he will be complaining like mad. he somemore ask my hairdresser to anyhow cut for me. tsK! this kind of friend also have. =p

going to meet kien tat again later for his filming thing at qingshun's house. oh my...another day of filming. kien tat! you owe me a favour ok! hahaa..=)

2005-07-26T23:11:00.000-07:00

i miss you so so much.

2005-07-26T03:24:00.000-07:00

i dont know why but i feel so so tired. ok. maybe its the rain. and the freagin nose is so irritating. yawns..tired. i love the rain. i love the rain. i love the rain. so much!

went to help ken tuck film today. acted as his gf. oh my...he so owe me ginseng to calm my nerves. haha. ok..lalalala...shall not elaborate what i have to do and say...not until i get my ginseng to calm my nerves. cant believe i had to say what i said and do what i did. if only...that was ewan mcgregor. gosh! ok..stop dreaming now...

i am feeling extremely mood swingy lately. and rachael lee apparently seems to be the sole victim for my attitude problem. cant help it. u know..she likes to sing..talk..laugh..everything at the top of her voice..and after a highly stressed filming day..and you hear all that...u just feel like exploding like a volcano. and today..something happened...so i got mad at her again. over nothing big..but it just pisses me off cause she's always like that. but nevermind. i am ok already. just wanted to let off some steam. she is still my boyfriend.

2005-07-24T08:06:00.000-07:00

woohoo...caught 'the island' yesterday. ewan mcgregor is so so stunning in the movie as lincoln 6 alpha. well, the shows about rich and famous people buying "insurance policy" and their policies are their clones. scary? i am wondering if such thing will happen in future. this show is definitely better than "War of the Worlds". at least, this show makes more sense.

well..the highlight is really ewan mcgregor and scarlett johansson. her lips are so sexy. they look perfect together. =) haha... i just wish i was her in the movie.

after the movie, went to watch ndp final rehearseal. will upload the photos soon. the parade is okay..like any other years. but it was really colourful and the costumes are really pretty :) yes and it rained...so now i am running a flu.

ok..highlight of the parade : THE GOODY BAG! it was normall.....lousy lights.....usual flags and fan....two bottle of drinks....one packet of grape biscuit....one small pack of chips. yeah. lionel's cousin was like "I am disappointed with the goody bag man". haha. so funny man he.

at the parade, each section was assigned a "motivator" to motivate you. duh. but then our motivator was extremely motivating in a way that he had the POWER to keep our eyes fixed at him. not because he is handsome or good in his dance. but because he was so funny. i couldnt stop looking and laughing at him THROUGHOUT the whole thing. they were like teaching us this dance, so we were looking at him as to how to do it..and he was looking at us as to how to do it? then after that he will pretend pretend "clap enthusiastically" like "YAY! we have done a great job!".

as usual, the fireworks was great. i love the air force nation salute. i wish i could fly that plane one day. i must prove that whatever guys cant do, girls can do it! and do it even better than them. ok, lionel must be laughing his ndp tattooos away now. oh! i must share this with everyone. i learnt something new and got to know my dear lionel better yesterday. that HE IS SCARED OF PARTY POPPERS! and HE HAS A WEAK BLADDER. muahaha....his kidney processes the liquid he takes in almost instantly. amazing. kept complaining that he was feeling pregnant due to the nachos and ice lemon tea combo he had. haha.

2005-07-22T20:32:00.000-07:00

ATTENTION! I am selling this lovely original Birkenstock directly imported from Germany for $80 only! Singapore doesnt have this design yet and i bet it will sell for 90bucks and above. Please drop me a note if you are interested to know more. =)

My Birthday present from my two beloved sweet jie jies. something different for me..=)

My very first birkenstock orginally from germany! i like!!

Serene jie jie's first birkenstock. so sweet...too sweet for me to handle.

Elene jie jie's very first birkenstock.

that makes me ahppy person.hahahaa.

2005-07-21T08:07:00.000-07:00

This is a tribute to you..for cheating you last minute.sorry girl! please forgive me.(hahaha..dont scold me hor!)

My student. isnt that cute little girl in red just so adorable.

I MISS MY GIRLS SO MUCH!

2005-07-20T21:56:00.000-07:00

ouch! i have a terrible neck ache. cant turn my head to the right. HELP!!!

2005-07-19T09:17:00.000-07:00

haha..guess whose flabs are those! some photos taken on sat. i shall be not so nice this time and reveal some flesh here. muahaha

2005-07-18T23:05:00.000-07:00

argh. i am craving for so much yummy food. like suntec convention centre steamboat buffet. gosh..i am dreaming about it. i want that HOT tom yam soup. i need to stimulate my taste buds.

muahaha..cant wait for tomorrow. excited. i have been long waiting for wednesday to come. meeting rachael again. rachel is like my boyfriend now. my friend asked me.."eh! so how! you got go pat tor or not?" i say.."GOT! Rachel lee jiayun is my boyfriend..i meet her every monday,wednesday,friday, sunday and sometimes saturday as well." i just love her company. i will never forget how i hated her to the core in sec.3 cause i thought she was damn irritating and noisy and she too hated me so much for having that black face. haha..and we just suddenly became the bestest friend of mine in late sec.4. and now..she is my boyfriend.haha. its scary how similar our taste in things are too.whenever something wierd between us happens, we will just laugh at each other and say.." I AM NOT SUPRISED"

everyone's exams are like soming. sian. no one is free to go out with me this week cause of the stupid exams. i have absolutely no idea why i dont have mid semestral test. not that i want it, but i am just curious.

i want to watch THE ISLAND!!! Ewan Mcgreggor is so good looking and hot in that show. finally, he is acting something that isnt love show. cant wait for that show to come out. no matter what others say, i still got to catch it. holidays is next week! yay...! freedom. no early mornings. longer sleep. finally can cut my hair..with rachel again. haha.

.my love for you is blind.

2005-07-17T07:20:00.000-07:00

yesterday was SO MUCH FUN! ok..lets start off the day..

lionel and the guys came to fetch me with this super lao pok car that none of us would ever want to be caught in that car..embarrassing. but got transport can already..it certainly made life much easier. THANKS A MILLION for being the uncle driver yesterday lionel! yes..and i had a feeling i didnt bring something but couldnt recall, so we went off...halfway at AYE...i was like.." OH NO! I DIDNT BRING MY CAM!" and everyone wanted to assasinate me. haha...until now they are announcing it on their blogs that i forgot to bring my cam and had to make a u turn. ok my fault.

next fault lies with NEO JUNXIONG! he happily bragged that he memorised the route to ponggol already. but we landed at changi village and got lost there. then he bragged again that he knew the way out and it was only 3mins away only. and we got lost for like 1/2 hr. thanks junxiong. we arrived an hour late and my uncle kevin left without me. so melvin had to take us out to sea..and yes...his boat spoiled! it was the "bad vehicle day".

ok shall cut on the details. let me laugh about something. GIRLS CAN BE AS GOOD AS GUYS OR EVEN BETTER. just proved it yesterday. haha..lionel! hahahaha....where is your backhand wakeboarding? he fell a zillion times and his michillin was like 'boing boing'..took photos of it for everyone's pleasure too. =) haha...ok but he managed to stand. so did the rest, except for qingshun.

junxiong was the best...he smartly tried to jump but he suicided and crashed instead. lionel named qingshun's style of wakeboarding the "KNEE-WAKEBOADING"..hahha..we were so mean..laughing at his backside. ok..ssssshhhhhh....thankfully..i dont have to treat anyone to dinner. hahaha...

ate super alot yesterday. we had like sambal kang kong, mee goreng, oyster, fish, deer meat, fired egg with onions for dinner. then drove to pasir ris to pass my friend the laptop...then lionel suggested to go marina there for coconut and satay, so we ate again...then after that...drove around for awhile...then sat down at west coast park macs and we binged on 3packets of fries. how fattening is that.

so proud of myself..went to queenstown lib to study with rachael today. studied 5 chapt, nopt really study la, but read through. better than nothing. I AM SO SO DETERMINED TO START SAVING MONEY. for CHC'S Arise & Build. though, i am not 100% sure i can give my pledged amount every month, but i am believing in God for his blessings. i know he will repay me back not 30 fold or 60 fold but 100 folds.

shall blog again another day. very tired man.

2005-07-14T05:31:00.000-07:00

yay! serene jie jie is so nice. =) now i have money to eat already. hahaha... glad i am finally done with the dma editing. so damn frustrating and difficult. i never want to be an editor. done with feature writing too. muahaha...two down..four more to go i think.

i'm craving for Royce Namo milk chocolate. argh..i am salivating at the thought of it. ALL BECAUSE OF CHERYL SIM XUE YI! SHE TEMPT ME!

2005-07-12T09:31:00.000-07:00

tired.shagged.so sick.depressed. name it and i have it.

thought it was going to be a happier day today, but turned out really crappy. WHY IS IT ALWAYS LIKE THAT?!?

i dont know if i am unlucky or what.... how ever in the world and why did things turn out this way just when you least expect it. everything crashed in one and just overflow like a volcano erruption. the limit is there and is going to overflow any moment now. efforts go wasted. everything is forgotten. the good goes and the bad remains. for life, eternity. CONDEMNED!

but oh well, no one's fault. who else can be blamed other than the source of touble. second chance? bullshit.

2005-07-10T08:04:00.000-07:00

so frustrated man. but shall not elaborate here. kinda cooled down already after meeting rach to study at queenstown library. yes..i am studying when its not yet the exams. amazing. accomplishment for me today :) RACHAEL LEE JIAYUN IS SO SWEET! she treated me to fosters for dinner. and yay! LIONEL TOCK....my a lot like love is finally coming! thank you a million everyone for the treats. i feel so bad now. when i get my bucks..i promise to be grateful...not that i am not now, but i will show it!

so damn stress lately. my pimple are popping. even when i saw the doctor the other time, he asked if i am very stress these days.and i am getting extremely short tempered and frustrated easily. feature writing..doomed. have not the slightest bit of idea on how to do it. editing is also doomed..both the home and school computer is going against me. sometimes i just hate technology. computers never ever like me.

2005-07-09T22:24:00.000-07:00

tests are finally over! for the time being. yah. my law test sucks to the max. i bet i was the lowest in class or somewhere near there. ok. just pray i wont boggle my conb and om test which i found super difficult.

just saw this someone's photo. lets call the person G. omg. its so... ....i dont know what to say and i dont want to say. G is like so...now i know G's true colours.you may think over a photo? but yes..pictures can tell alot of things about someone.more or less...shucks,i was so wrong about G. but anway...forget it. at least now i know. and i must TRY to stop gossipping. i promised and i still promise.

cant wait for next sat! i want to laugh at TOCK! prepared to have a laughing session there already. haha..getting my cameras ready to prove that i am not wrong.hahaha...ok i shall not be so mean. after all you saved my eye...=)

I feel so bad for cancelling date with rach so last min last night. something cropped up.=( sorry. i promise i will devote my night for you next week. u can drown your sorrows with me..i'm always free to listen. after that i also want to join in and nag my sorrows out to you. anyways..i went to Mount Faber for the first or second time in my entire life last night. its a really nice place. windy..cooling...nice view...nice ambience...quite quiet. stayed there till about 2.30am with sis & bf and this couple whom we met at europe. nice. minus the part where there are loads of mini beetles and flies.

discussed the topic on Gh**t. We were saying many things that cant be seen with our naked eye can actually be caught on camera and video..and my chances of seeing them is higher. which i am so sure i saw it before in one of the video. positive. yah..but is there really GH**t?!? yes i believe that there good spirits around called the holy spirits.but is there really one who comes to harm you? i think its all about believing. if u believe there isnt such thing or believe they cant harm you..they wont. but i have the guts of a mouse. that aint good. i want to train up! no way am i going to allow any fear to overcome me. easier said then done.

we were saying first step i have to do is:
1) sleep with the lights off
2) sleep alone with the lights off
3) STAY IN THE TOILET ALONE WITH THE LIGHTS OFF STARING AT THE MIRROR
4) guard duty at my house? (out of point suggestion)

if i can do that...i have overcomed my fear of darkness. THAT IS IF I CAN DO IT.

2005-07-08T09:50:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAID NEO! muahaha...went to fish&co to celebrate the birthday boy's birthday. =) had a delicious delicious mouth watering mudpie. have not have it since like last year dec. feels so good to have it again! super sinful. thats like my one week's does of sugar rush. thank you so much MR KNOW IT ALL for the sugar free sweets which u went through heaven and hell just to find them. appreciate it alot. Thanks QINGSHUN for the mudpie. =)) i'm a happy person today. and yet a super moody person.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRIVATE HUANG! not like he will ever read this..but anyway, just in case he does. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ok..i shall not talk about what happened.

wakeboarding with rachael dearest is so nice. as usual. and yes, my beginners class have ended...time to stress about money. i still cant believe how similar me and rach's taste is in something. we just fall for the same things. like the same things. everything! just that i am more fussy with food, she isnt. she hates the sun and i love the sun. she's mad but i'm not so mad. haha...how did two person who were enemies for 1 1/2 years become so good friends up till now. unbelievable. she brought me back to christ...taught me so many things about life unknowingly...her cheerfulness brings me joy.

ok great. tomorrow i am going to the zoo with my whole family for some family day. time to feed to mosquitoes. argh. hate them to the core. they are so irritating. how exciting is tt. i am visiting and supporting Singapore's attraction. I kinda want to go NDP. want to get the feeling of being a little patriotic and singing all that "we are Singapore, we are Singapore... .... hear the LIONS ROAR". so exciting. haha....

ok i am so tired now. my eyes are going to close any moment. GOOD NIGHT. and oh yes..MEL, HIT..got your msg, my taggie is now working again!

2005-07-06T22:57:00.000-07:00

have been so busy lately. test every week. editing assignment. filming assignment. arghh...i feel so tired every night. cant get my lazy backside off the bed every morning. so many shows i want to watch but cant find the time to. like..a lot like love, war of the worlds, the island. i am so lagging behind time. and my ipod shuffle is so screwed up. dont know why the songs get cut off halfway.

today school is at 3pm.=) wanted to wake up at 9am to study..but i was too lazy. pressed snooze all the way until 11.15am. haha..yah. and so i woke up,bathed, breeze through my notes, did a small part of law tutorial and then surfing the net now. anyway..i am so happy we're finally done with MMR project and presentation. though we did screw the presentation up....its ok.=)

i've been considering whether to continue with my wakeboarding class or not. i love it very much..but i dont have the money. first time in such a long time i feel so passionate about something. something that i will put in my best to do it. something which i dont think its a one minute interest kinda thing. even if i do have the money..it really means that i have to scrimp and save to the max. bid goodbye to restaurants and hello to foodcourts. goodbye to orchard road and hello to chinatown. but oh well...i shall see. see how i cope with it for the next 2-3months first.

2005-07-04T22:43:00.000-07:00

headache headache..!! argh...stupid head. i dont know is it my headache affecting my vision or what but my eyesight seems to be failing me. not wakeboarding on wednesday.=( because of some lame feild trip where we have to find 100 story lines at chinatown?!? what?!? whats the connection? MMR project due on wednesday. OM test on thursday. many other pending CAs lining up. ahhhh.....

pilates now has reached a higher level. as i already am struggling last monday, yesterday was 100times worse than last week. but luckily no more aches. meeting E110 for dinner later. =) so long never fellowship with them already. better go this time or willard and wayne is going to nag into my ears again.

met up with medeline dearest on sunday after church for Batman Begins. I know...the show has long been out but i only caught the show now. i treated her to movie since i have the voucher so she treated me to dinner. =)

ok..let me say my views for the movie first. I found the starting kinda lengthy..though yes i know its is batman BEGINS...so they must show how he actually becomes batman and all, but its taking just too long. i fell alseep during the first part. i can imagine how bored all the kids were actually. then slowly...christian bale shaved, became clean, macho and rich! haha...then i woke up. His body is so HOT! not the slightest bit of flabs could be spotted. he's not axactly good looking but he has this charm. just like jude law. =) maybe because of his role...but at least he had that charm. The show only became nice and interesting after he became batman. and that psychotic guy in the show (the doctor)..really looks psychotic..disgusting. thats why they called him to act what right. anyway..the sound effects were ok only..nothing really whoah! about it. to me, what makes a good movie is its sound effects..it can really captivate one's attention.

saw the preview for charlie and the chocalate factory and this other show that stars Johnny Depp. i know alot of people are his fans, especially miss ***..but i really have to say that he looks wierd! i dont know why...but he just looks somewhat like michael *******. ok dont kill me.

anyway...back to the impt point. its so nice catching up with meddie again..have not found the time to meet up with all of them yet since qian hui is always working on weekends and kim is busy studying for her A's (HOPEFULLY!) . its so amazing how we seldom meet up yet can still remain so close at heart. though we may be physically apart, whenever we meet, we're still able to share all our dirty little secrets openly to each other and just bare our hearts out. this is what i call true friendship. really enjoyed my quality time spend with meddie..she's still the same...so blur! forever one.haha...but much much more mature i must say. thats a good thing ok med!

hahahaha..RAELYN KISSED ME TODAY! and she let me carry her! so rare....

2005-07-01T23:08:00.000-07:00

tuition yesterday was damn frustrating! i really dont know what to do and what to say also.just worried for her future. anyway..shall not let it spoil my day. after tuition met up with qingshun to meet the rest of the guys in town. and as usual..GUYS ARE ALWAYS LATE! so me and qs walked around..and..terrible..i caught sight of a super nice white spag from m)phosis for 41bucks. but of course, i didnt buy it..qs kept saying waste money..so expensive...so ok lor. dont buy. then after walking around for one hour..lionel said want to watch movie so ask us to go and buy first...but, no tickets. sickening. price increase already still got so many people go and watch movie.

had dinner at pastamania with mr know it all tock, qs, lame kien tat and shawn tan.Dinner was just "ok lah"... after that walked to orchard..lalala...then go to mc cafe for a drink. talked loads of crap and took some photos until 11.30. and i finally psycho-ed them to try wakeboarding with uncle bobby and kevin. muahaha..

today is shopping time again with elene jie jie. got to catch the last few bits of cheap stuff from the great singapore sale. i did my part in boosting the country's economy. hahaa..yah right.